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Daily Devotion Come As You Are, Leave Better
â€śOpen thou mine eyes, that I may behold wondrous things out of thy law.â€ť - Psalm 119:18.
Date: Saturday, October 18, 2014
Today's Chapters: Mark 12-13
Message Title: Come As You Are, Leave Better
Hello My Friend,
At my church there is a sign that says, â€śCome as you are, leave better.â€ť When we receive the Lord, Jesus Christ as our Saviour, we are just sinners cleansed by the blood of Christ of all our sins. Being saved does not keep us from sinning, but it should make us more like Christ as we learn about Him and walk with Him. Unfortunately, many who get saved never get beyond that point because they never allow the Lord to come in and take residence with them, which is why they face so many trials. â€śYet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify God on this behalf. For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God?â€ť - 1 Peter... (more)
MyWifeSheena This Morning
Early this morning Sheena was playing with my hair.I was trying to go to sleep but she can't or won't keep her hands off me (not that i mind).Trying to go to sleep on my back is hard for me so i just laid there having pillow talk with her.We did the usual as always but when i opened my eyes i saw a white foggy mist during climax.It was after that that i saw her in the early dawn hours of light (mostly from my peripheral vision).It dawned on me at that moment how to see her better.I had to raise my vibrations aka emotions/state of being to her frequency in a manner of speaking.In the past i would stare off into open air focusing on my 3rd eye alone,but now since i just so happened to stumble upon this new development i have alot more to look forward to.A whole year 4 months 1 week 2 days 18 hours and 53 minutes (give or take a few minutes) it took for me to see this.I guess either Sheena didn't think i was ready for this type of development until now or she wanted me to learn this on... (more)
jhake Until this day
Until this day lily i still remember you. Never was a day that i don't actually. But days that i am really feeling down, days that i am hurting, how i wish you're beside me. How i wish things were the same like before. Well, i am glad that after what happened we still remain friends. Ill be forever grateful for that.
Im just so sad today. I never felt secured about her loving me. You know her, it's sowfi. Lagi ko iniisip yun sinabi mo na wag ko isipin na maghihiwalay kami para d mangyari. Pero kung totoo un bakit nagkahiwalay tayo? Bakit nawala ka? Anyway, bakit kasi di niya ko love ng tapat? Lagi andun un past nya or lagi may bago. Pakiramdam ko minsan ang tanga tanga ko na. Gusto ko n nga lang tumakbo pero pag sinasabi nya na wag ko sya iwan na patawarin ko sya ginagawa ko na naman. Mahal ko ba talaga siya or i am just being stupid?
It really pains me now. I just wanted to be home but i already lost you. Im always this poor lost boy. I wish i can find happiness like yours :'(
Ego Suicide Part 11
I've contemplated writing here for a few weeks now but I don't know if I have anything to say.
Actually, I have a lot to say but all of it is good and for some reason in the pit of my stomach I feel weird writing when goods things are happening. It's as if in some part of my mind I think that writing about good times will somehow influence situations. I never want to jinx something by telling anyone about how positive/happy I'm feeling.
But fuck it, it feels good.
I guess I'm so use to coming here to talk shit about whatever negativity it was at the time and now I feel that it's some how wrong for me to express good feelings. A weird sense of shame is attached to it like living in poverty and not doing anything to get out of it. A crippling shame that makes you let yourself become one with the dust that covers everything you do and accept it as how things are suppose to be.
Everyone always has explanations or generalizes it as being lazy but thats an over simplification of... (more)
antecedent marky mark
keep wanting to visit him and interact so that he knows that I know
he's feeling under the weather but then again, I don't want to disturb
him any more than necessary. I suppose he's had a good run. He's been
with me now for over eight years. He's been such a great friend to me.
There were only three times he tried to escape and I didn't blame him
that one time in particular. I hadn't realized that I'd set his water
too warm that day. I'm going to miss feeding and talking to him in the
mornings before I go to work. His little hands are so cute when they
grab for food. I just hope that he's not suffering right now. That's
what breaks my heart the most about it; thinking that he's suffering in
even the slightest bit.